hospitalised

heather is admitted to the hospital because of jaundice, and i have problems with breastfeeding.

having nursed rafael for more than 2 years, i thought i'm pretty much a veteran breastfeeding mother and i thought it's just going to be smoother this time. while rafael was such an avid drinker and cried for hunger every hour, heather has decided to give us a peaceful mind by not crying at all and sleeping through the night from day 1. of course her mother tried every method to wake her up to nurse more, but she's just so determined to sleep and put on a hunger strike, actively sucking for only one or two minutes each time and not swallowing even when she's cupfed with expressed milk.

nothing in, nothing out. and that's why she's not able to get rid of the jaundice-causing bilirubin which needs to be passed out in her stool and urine.

we're hoping that the light therapy will help her and the nurses would be able to make her drink more at the hospital. meanwhile, with too little stimulation from my dear girl, i need to rely on regular pumping to increase my milk supply.

remembering those sleepless nights when rafael was a newborn, i was so eager to finish the book "no cry sleep solution" before heather was delivered, little do i know that sleep turns out to be the last thing i wish my girl to do now.

thanks for all your blessings and kind wishes for heather and us, i'm sure this difficult period will pass by in no time.